Friday, May 31, 2013

Bad Days and Donkeys

         Bad days come and go. Most of them we can’t even recall. I remember a day like that from a few years ago; however, it’s not the bad that I recall the most. Rather, the lesson which I learned from it.        
It was one of those days. Every little thing was against me and I was on the verge of tears. Numerous Anxieties wore at my body as my mother walked me up to the receptionist in order to explain my tardiness. Before we could enter the building, I impulsively grabbed my mother’s arm and broke down into tears. My mother. My caring and completely understanding, mother, stood with me silently. Our silent conversation was soon interrupted by a man, one with the most outstandingly ridiculous looking mustache, who walked out of the building with his son. The mustache is not what threw me off however… it was the fact that this man was wearing a donkey costume! You could tell he felt slightly awkward, as if he had just walked into someone else’s house. I would like to think that my obvious crocodile tears were what provoked him to break the silence, “I bet you’re wondering why I am dressed like an ass…” The silence was shattered and all of my troubles of that day melted away with our laughter.
       I can’t recall exactly what my poor freshman self could’ve been going through that day but I do recall my father’s words to me from earlier that morning. Before the mustached donkey man brought me back down to earth, I had forgotten that I had written those words of wisdom down on paper and had stashed them in my pocket:

"There are 2 rules in life...                                        #1 Don't sweat the small stuff.   
                              #2 Everything is a small thing”

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Refined

        

   I once heard the interesting fact of the Great Trees of California. The pine-cones of such a tree must first be set on fire.

 After an intentional scorching, seeds are released and the ones that are not harmed are free to begin in joining their relatives in the sky.
   The distant streaks of light I saw the night before ended up being closer to me than I thought.  The light spread across the mountain. The glowing menace threatened my life as I knew it to be. In searching for “necessary” items to rescue, I found my true treasures. These treasures could not be physically incinerated by fire.  They were revealed, like the great seeds, in the midst of the blaze.



Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Do Re Mi

On the days where I simply give up with words, 
I consult with the black and white keys and I converse with the strings. 
I wish we could all speak with music. 
Things would be less complicated.
 Pure emotion. 
Not a harmful or hurtful thing would be uttered.
Then again, neither would compliments or encouraging words.
 Or maybe they would be.
 Maybe they would find a way. 
Both extremes seem to always be able to be heard. 
The keys, the strings, the pure hollow sound. 
Music to my ears, music to my mouth.

The Last One

I was the last one to play the now-charred black and white keys. No tune will ever emerge from it ever again.
I was the last one to open the door to a room filled with several things: couches and a catalog-covered coffee table, a mountain of coats in the corner next to a piano.
I was the last one to walk across the partially spotted carpet. A floor with an explanation or story for each stain.
I was the last. Who am I to deserve this claim?
They were not my coats. They were not my memories. It was not my piano.
It was not my fault. Although, I cannot help the feeling of ‘what if?’.
Flashing lights and questions.
An empty coat rack. As if it were winter and every member of the family was using their winters best to fight off the bitter cold.
This bitterness, however, could not be avoided. The reality was as real as it could be.


No blame was placed, but instead, the family rises above the ashes. Refusing to let reality’s disease to leave them bitter. Not alone, but together. A combination of their memories is all that remains. And I know… I am not the last one.

Monday, May 27, 2013

The Silent Ruler of My Nights

The silent ruler of my nights. 
“I’ll do it tomorrow.” 
Tomorrow is where it thrives. 
Where the harvest of this vicious cycle is reaped.
 And yet, with my full awareness, I let it begin again.
 The Tomorrow Me can deal with it.
 How much more can my future self, handle? 
This disease of time-wasting ironically might be my most productive state.
 It is amazing what our minds come up with while avoiding, perhaps, an even less daunting task. 
“If I could just solve this unrelenting paradox…”
Time. 
The worst enemy of those who fall victim. 
And yet, if allowed more extra, the results would probably not change.
 The real danger is Perspective Perception. 



Tomorrow Me will always seem more willing than Today MeTomorrow Me, however, could not disagree more! 
Today Me’s biggest regret is Yesterday Me’s decision to allow Time to approach Tomorrow Me’s duty.