Past Due You

That furrow in your brow, that fake smile on your face;

Something must be wrong, something's out of place.

You just don't seem the same. Something's not quite right.

Something must be missing in the air tonight.

Or could it be-- could it just be me?

Could it be? Could it just be me?

Even how you look at me with those eyes--

Something looks different-- Almost not as bright.

Have you lost your hope, my dear? Have you lost your sight?

If you need me, I'm right here. I'll be by your side.

Then again, I might be wrong... 

But from what I see you're mostly gone.

So, then again, I must be right... 

And in that case, I'll help you fight.

Fight for the right to find the real you. 

Despite our lack of time, you need to tell yourself the whole truth.

No more of this trying to hide. Its past due time for you to fly.

And if I leave you'll be alright.

I'll do anything to help you try.

Words can only go so far

And when they’re gone it’s left to the heart.

I’ve tried to find the words to say

But the problem with words is they can be erased.

And it makes it hard for me to figure how to say

That everything you do just takes my breath away.

And all I can do is smile

And hope that you stay for just a little while more

And do all the things that we adore.

All I’m asking for

Is a little more time galore.

With you

But these words can only go so far

So I hope that you’re hearing my heart.

<3 :)

Trust in You

I know it's not only me.

I see there's so much more to this life.

I feel something's missing. 

It's like the puzzle piece you never find--

God I know it's You.

You Lord fill every gap.

You take my heart and make it new. 

Now I know what was missing,

I can't believe it wasn't always mine--

God I know it's You.

You are the treasure of my heart,

I will never let You go. 

And when the times get hard,

To You I'll go and run.

You are the one who gave me life,

So now I give You mine.

God I trust in You.

You love a sinner's heart.

Though left, a heart of vacancy.

You wipe a sinner's tears

With Your mighty hand.

God I'll trust in You.

And when the time we know will come

We'll go home to You.

But for the moment,

Here and now,

We'll trust in You.

I'll trust in You.

You are the treasure of my heart,

I will never let You go. 

And when the times get hard,

To You I'll go and run.

You are the one who gave me life,

So now I give You mine.

God I trust in You.

Forever Yours

On my own, I am a hopeless wreck.

Without a home; without a place to go where I belong--

Where do I belong?

When dead ends are all I see ahead of me,

Is this the result from my complacency?

Afraid of what there might not be.

I'm not used to winning by any means.

I'm the one who normally left behind the scenes.

So when I hear that I could be someone who's loved,

I fear inside that this could be a little too much.

But oh how You've captured me and made me a home.

And, oh how You've brought me in and You're making me whole.

The day has gone, 

The time has past,

The dawn of You has come at last.

Now I'm forever--

I'm Forever Yours.

I have felt all alone for oh so long.

The time has come when I have done wrong, 

Yet You love me, still.

You want me to let go of my past,

 So You can hold both of my hands.

Because right now what I'm holding to is keeping me from taking this chance.

And oh how You've captured me and made me a home.

And, oh how You've brought me in and You're making me whole...

Lord, You have my soul.

Lord, take control.

I surrender my heart. 

You've captured me with You're Love and Mercy;

You've rescued me from my darkest dreams.

You're Love is my home, 

And I've finally found where I belong. 

Letting Go

      For me, time passes by way too quickly. When I was younger I would anticipate certain milestones such as going to high school and getting my driver’s license. At first, it seemed time couldn't come quick enough, but by the time I became a freshman I realized that I should probably slow down and enjoy my time; after all, my long anticipated liberation from an awkward childhood was steadily becoming my reality and I knew that it would soon take over. Now, whether I am enjoying myself or I am under a time sensitive stress, minutes and hours of a day pass too quickly. I try to make the most of every hour during my day so that each day of my week is filled with things that are worth my time. This makes it a lot easier for me because it’s comforting to know that I am spending my time wisely. I try to continually keep this habit of perspective in check so that I will not waste my current time while being anxious for another time—whether it be past or present.

      This past year has been the most prevalent in my desire to hold on to time. The people I have met, the family I have lost, the things I have learned, and the sense of stability I have acquired in the past year have all contributed to my reluctance to move forward. I will be moving soon, and the days are literally counting down to a new season of change in my life.  A season where most of the things on that list vanish or are all of a sudden made irrelevant and trivial. Thinking about this pains me because part of me—a very large part—doesn't want to let go. The other part of me however, knows how important my perspective is of this situation. By keeping a clear perspective of the future, but still a grateful attitude for the present, my pain is eased and time becomes and accessory in my life—an accessory that, rather than stealing precious moments, makes them possible.